I only make about $40k, so I didn't think she would want to marry me.
I was never invited to her work, a very powerful law firm and very high floor office in downtown SF.
I never met any of her friends or family, and on her side , she never talked about work, friends, or family.
I blab and disclose my whole life!
Sing along with the radio horribly to my loves. And try to tell them how Wonderful they are and how lucky I am !!
Maybe I was her first. A lesbian?
And she just didn't know how she felt or how to save an "I love you" relationship. I did feel significant to her. Unlike the rebound woman or the unfeeling, limp attractive woman. Or the artist who bedded me just to put me down loudly afterwards with her girlfriends.
I never cheated on her or even thought about it.
If she had asked me to move in or talked about having kids or meeting her friends or meeting her parents, I might not have gone to Western Europe for 3 months.
She didn't call or write me,,, so, Big Sigh, I thought we were over. I didn't want our love affair to end.
It was very hard to write that "fair well" letter; And she did not reply.
I loved her as best I could.
If I had asked, "Will you marry me?", I fear she would have said no, because of my low pay that made my boss a multimillionaire.
I met a young attractive French woman who said I was her "movie star look-alike husband to be" and I should meet her parents, visit her again next year, after she visited me!
Talk about motivated!
Well, it was all an elaborate 3yr con-job to get a U.S. passport and 18 years alimony and child support !!
She borrowed a handsome man to be her "father" and borrowed a very nice small modern house to be her "family home". All lies.
What a gullible fool I was!!
I caught her lying about "wearing our diaphragm", but she was "already pregnant", she then told me.
So beware of women that are too interested, also!!
I do apologize to just all these Wonderful women for my bad choices, but approaching 30 I was worried if I would never have children.
So painful to be "in love" yet still be near total strangers, usually her to me as I am very open and honest and 99% faithful. For instance:
I dated ,just once, 3 gorgeous women at once and told all 3; Of course, that ended all 3 affairs, and one was a famous butt model !!
Silly me.
I just looked at bare big breasts in a checkout grocery line and she cried!
More often than I wished, this would happen.
A single mom with 2 kids she could barely support. Twice it happened;we were very much in love and lust for years. One married a Navy captain. The other, purely for finances, married quickly a physicist and move to Texas.
The last daughter of 12 , a traveling nurse, from a super-rich D.C. family; The father told me " you are Not marrying my daughter." And I had paid to fly from sf to there. She cried in my arms for hours. In just 3 months she was married to a young successful lawyer , with a huge 2 story house, 4 girls, and after 20 hard years, a quick divorce.
One rebounded back to a lived with but rejected Wyoming trucker who owned his own brick house, who was so jealous of her smarts, poise, confidence, humor and beauty, he became very jealous and very abusive; after 2 good kids and 20years, another very painful divorce.
Three women came right out and told me, after a Wonderful year or two, get this!, "I love you, I want to marry you, but if you don't double your salary to $80k by next week, we are done!!"
So one married a guy who died of cancer in one year. Another married an old "trusted but boring" she told me boyfriend and moved from the luxury,2 story, hot tub condo. 2 car big garage for our Miata and MR2.
Guess I won't Rob banks for any of these women.
What a sadness.
